Saturday, February 28, 2004
hey.. so tired today. after invest. practice went for tuition. left the rehearsal early. i heard there were many damn lame actions for the item we're doing. we're gonna sing 'oh happy day' and 'i will follow him'. but both merged together the songs. as in. half of 'oh happy day'. and half of 'i will follow him'. yep. quite nice la. but i still dont believe it. im gonna do sop. 2. thats like so highhhhh. haha nvm la.. get it over and done with or something. yep. oohh yeah. have to wear prefect's uniform this monday. and im ushering st andrew's sec. sch.. alamak. lol. and i dunno who's gonna usher with me. who's amanda? anyone knows? aiya. go find out on monday or something. yup. 17 schools are invited. but i doubt all of them will come. the schools are ri, vs, ij st nicholas, rgs, holy innocents' high, st andrews sec sch, st gabrielle's, st pats, acs (i), acs (br), ij st theresa, ij tp primary.. and i forgot what are the other schools. dang. okay. hmmm and i get to leave the class at 11:55am! or maybe at 10:40am thats what they said. muahahahahah. gotta change into uniform and all. argh. yup. i like.. lol. i feel weird lol.. i dont wanna be a lamp-post tommy lol. u can do it! just do it by nike. lol. k la enough of my crap. i'll run away now. se eya tc. god bless.
--Aunt Agony at 9:56 PM
Thursday, February 26, 2004
ni hao! im bored la sorry.. so far 3 days no school already sian like shit.. i need to get out of the house mama! let me.. hope she let la. at most sneak out also i hope my maid wont tell my mama. haha. suay ah suay. what to do. nothing much happened yesterday just went to pope's house! yeah and then went to mel's house. wa lao i tell u that bugger ah lied to her dad about taking her medicine lor. didnt take go and anyhow say she take already wa liew. oohh yeah! im going back to school tomorrow. muahahahaha. i'm lovin' it. haiya sian la. lucky these few days not much homework phew~ haha yeah lor. sighh~ my condition better than tuesday, but was worse than yesterday. yeah haha i hope i can go out of the house today lor ~sigh~ oohh well what to do. hmmmmmm. sian like crap la. i think i'll get out of the house today and meet the rest lor. shoot. damn. arrrr. oohh well. sigh~ oohh well i havent got much to blog la so catch yall later.
--Aunt Agony at 10:07 AM
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
hey yall.. i didnt go to school today cos got asthma attack at 4 plus 5 plus around there.. then i went to the hospital.. consulted the doctor then the doctor prescribed me 3 doses of ventolin 15 mg nebuliser.. at least i think its 15 mg i dunno how much is it.. yeahh after which i felt better.. (( thanks to the good people of NUH and my parents. sry kor haha u gotta take bus this morning instead of daddy's nice comfy car heh heh -.-"))then i hv mc.. till thursday? yeah then friday i go back to school.. im starting to miss school already and yeah.. haha thanks daryl.. i like the lay toooo and the song.. love it to bits.. and u still havent tell me yet who hor.. =hints+winks= lol. k.. no action so far for this day yet.. the only action installed for tdy is.. BAKING OF COOKIES!! ~yum~ haha yep. lame la i know so sry but i looooooooove cookies. anyone want any cookies? heeeez. yeah la. k. for tdy, tmr and thursday is pure havoc baby and i am gonna get used to this. but alamak. tmr ah. alst day for taking the mtv thing u know. how? zhe me ban? nvm la at most go to school tmr la also not like i will die one lol then got math test also gonna die mann.. ooh well enough of my crap already gotta go see yall yeah? take care!! god bless =)).
--Aunt Agony at 1:54 PM
Monday, February 23, 2004
sigh~ yeah nth much happened today. i just got really agitated. hate it when pple make empty promises haha. yeahh. then kenna asthma attack. suay huh. haha yup. i feel sooo angry i dunno wad to do anymore. yeah just keep it in. nxt time then vent it out or something. i dun really care. hv science and math hw. math i only did 4 questions hah about of 30 i think tts the furthest i can go. i dunno la. later break down then dunno wad to do. then break down break down break down. yup. i really think that people can hurt others with their words. without them realising. and no one ever tells them and they just carry on doing it. i dunno la. i am -lost-. yes. seriously. i am very afraid of hurting others. sometimes i dont even know whether i hurt them or not and all that. pls throw it right in my face and let me know if ive ever hurt any of yall? yeahh. i dunno what to do anymore.. haii~ i really dunno. help me? haha. nah just kidding. im damn bored now. got nth much to do online as usual. cant even blast the stereo. cos my father scolded me say wad so loud u think this building ur wad ur grandfather's property is it? the way he say damn funny also la i dun care la aiyo. i really dont gv a shit anymore. oohh well yup. throw all ur cares behind. yup. k la ill update soon. bb tc. god bless.
--Aunt Agony at 8:33 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2004
oohh my.. so late liao i havent even started on my hw. uh-oh.. yeah haha.. sigh. went to the doctor yesterday. said it was a common cold so hekkit la. my mother wants me to go to the doc's again. i have no idea why. yupp. she's not back yet so i shan't worry about that.. yup. well.. so sian now. havent got much to do but come online and go online @ msn. and blog. and tag other pple's blogs. so routine alr. aiyoo. yep. humm. then i skipped tuition yesterday. slept through it yesterday. then oohh man. the receptionist called in and asked why didnt i go for tution. shitters. well my mother picked up the phone anyway haha so nth la. aiyoo. yeah. umm. long day for me tmr.. sigh~. gotta stay back for deco comm meeting yet AGAIN. aiyoooo. yeah we've yet to complete the deco so we have no choice but to stay back la. yeah. thats the way it is. well guess i'd be going. oohh yeah yesterday had green house day. there wasnt much happening anyway. all we did was play a few sports, cheer, decorate a banner, and there was the pail game and scavenger hunt. yeah. thats about it. see yall. tc yeah god bless.
--Aunt Agony at 5:29 PM
Friday, February 20, 2004
hey.. nothing much happened today.. didnt go for piano again cos had to stay back at school for deco comm meeting for investiture.. 17 schools coming.. had more last year though. haha. so boreeeed. i'm not going to church tdy. AAAHHH. have not gone for charismatic for two weeks already. oohh no. yeah. and i still owe u some money mel. haha yeahh. supposed to go to the docs tdy. but i told my father no need to go. waste time. yepp. humm~ yeah. quite a lot of stuff have been happening recently and yeah. i dont really feel too good haha. god im glad its a friday -alleluia- yeah. then gotta get to school tmr. hope there're no heats cos im not feeling too well. doing 4 by 100m relay. yeahh. and nicky was damn lame tdy. haha. but funny la huh. so crappy. lemme see. what shall i do now. oohh well i'll be online. till i dunno what time. yeahh. oohh yeah took class photo today. was the only one in all white uniform hahaha. had to wear court shoes argh. yep. well yeah thats about it. nothing much to talk about really cos im a boring person and i have no life. lol ok. see yall then byee. tc.
--Aunt Agony at 7:35 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2004
yes! hey agn.. i cant stop thinking.. i dunno why.. sigh.. yup. thats how it is i guess. so wassup babieees!! lol ok la. im high. i completed my hw alr then dont feel so burdened. lol so im highhhhh (( yeah right )) okok. i'll put a cork in it. yeah. tdy was quite ok la. quite slack. tmr hv PE!! shiokk. run 2.4km. not shiok. i wanna do relay!! haha.. signed up for 4*100m relay though.. lol. in tha team is jia zhi, jamie, jaclyn and i. see la. i the only extra one the name start with a. aiyoweiya. lol who cares. anyway.. today stayed back for deco. comm. meeting. haha went out to buy the stuff then we came back. we actually spent one hour plus just to buy the stuff. at toa payoh. how corny is tt. so near school only haha. took so long. ooh well. then on the way back wah lao zelina kept whacking everybody with the crepe paper lol. so funny. then they were talking abt yu pei and her blurrified self today. haha yeah dunno how to type it out but yeah. damn funny. haha. then we came back to make bows for the decorations for the hall. lol. gek shan gek shan. go and think out of the box. said it looked like a thong. ahahahah. damn lame lor. but good also la. can crack up haha. oohh and thank god i got the uniform for this friday's photo taking alr! thanks so much carol. yep yep. then we did the mtv thingy tdy! grace "slapped" me. on my face la. fake one. then i turn my face to the wrong direction. then cnnt take it also. cos im taller than grace. she stood on the ledge ah haha i wanna whack her also cnnt cos once i whack she's bound to trip and fall. and jaz taught joyce how to fall fake a fall.. up a stair. lol. so damn funny can? too bad we didnt record it. ahahaha. it was damn funny. yeah. thats abt it. then tmr going to cathay bowl. but lame lah i aint bowling. cos i cant bowl for nuts ahahaha. yep thats why lor. haha i feel like playing badminton. but they all bowling alr leh. so i dunno how la haha. k la i'll blog some other time. take care yall? god bless.. RAWK ON!!
--Aunt Agony at 8:18 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004
sigh yup im bored. tdy just went to suntec and went with jaz to try to retreive her file.. but her file aint there. no one retrieved it. sigh~ yeah. saddening. only jaz noe wad im talking abt haha. i'm seriously at a lost now. i dont know wad to do. GOD SAVE ME! sigh. ='(
--Aunt Agony at 7:52 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2004
hey.. sorry have not been blogging much these days. nothing much have been happening.. and then everyday is just the same old boring life.. yup.. lemme see.. yeah i met gary and shaun yesterday.. they had to go like haha 5 min later cos we didnt know all the details where to meet and all that cos i didnt bring my phone to school heh heh. then gary had to go also la -oops- haha. yup. see i so guai dont bring phone to school. but yeah. it was great meeting them yup yup. yesterday i was supposed to go for charismatic. then i didnt go. ended up going to far east floral thingy to get flowers for people!! yeah. got them yellow roses. i didnt know that they represented sympathy till after i got it! alamak. and mel i havent paid u yet. remind mee. yeah then stayed at her place till 953pm around there then came back home. then did the flower stuff like cotton wool and aluminium foil and all tt. then stayed up to conference!! till abt 230am tdy. then joe slept like at 1 plus if im not wrong? then talked to daryl till abt 230am. talked about a lot of crap la haha i wanna laugh man. yep. then i slept till 6am then got up washed up and got to school cos gotta get my business done for the valentine's day gifts for the class. then the hike! was soo great man. we got fik for our instructor. he's full of crap (F.O.C.) our grp name was *tooot* literally tooot la. haha so funny. tooot can go with anything. so cool right? i love it. haha. then we got lost twice. cos we didnt hear fik cough. everytime he coughs means we went the wrong way. or sometimes he misleads us. tsk tsk tsk. we were the second last grp to reach! cool right. 15 km hike man. haha, shiooook. nxt time must hike more. then the whole camp ended at 530. after which i went with grace to meet joe. i was supposed to catch a movie with nick. but his mother didnt let. see la. and with mel also. 3 of us. then at 630 pm i went for dinner with my parents.. there was a lot of food though it was just 3 pathetic dishes. but shiok la. last one chilli stuff tak boleh tahan. then was damn full.. then i came back home lor. and here i am -taadaa-. yup thats abt it for the past 2 days. sooo saddenning. ooh yea! happy valentine's day!! -sends out kisses to all-. lol u must be wondering eee. haha. dont care la. just take care k yall? God bless! let everyone whom you love know that you love them.. its never too late to do that cos you will never know what will happen at the next moment.
--Aunt Agony at 10:23 PM
Saturday, February 07, 2004
yup hey.. today's quite a slack day.. i expected my tuition teacher to yell at me but she didnt. so soft hearted man she, cos i didnt go for tuition 2 weeks in a row. so i expected her to scold. haha but surprisingly she didnt. AND CATECHISM CLASS STARTS TOMORROW!! ~+WOOHOO+~. i love cat class mah so cant blame me right. yup got another poem. dunno i just felt like typing it. so here goes.

"The Unexpressed" composed by pang weiru alicia christine(( me ))

all your pain that is suppressed,
i've heard of it and its hard for you to express.
you are still a person, so lost and alone,
you call out to someone, yet all is still unknown.
you find joy when you see the ones whom you love,
yet putting all your troubles behind is just too tough.
all you pray for was someone to see,
and from behind this cage you will be set free.
there is more than meets the eye,
no one can see, on the inside that you cry.
no more will you be torn,
for all your pain shall soon be gone.

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well yep thats the one. doesnt make much sense but yea. haha. so bored now. k i'll blog another time. and ooh yea. tdy played badminton. with daryl, joe, grace, thoma, joe's and daryl's friend. so funny man. dunno how to relate it to yall but nvm. yup k. then went all the way to cineleisure to get lunch. cos the movie timings were just so out. as in. not with our schedule. yea. then i went for tuition. then here i am. yup yup. i kinda think that the poem relates to my mother's life.. cos she is a strong woman if u see her from the outside.. but on the inside.. she is fragile. yes. theres a reason why she's acting like that.. well cos of some stuff i cant disclose. yea.. so im at a lost. i dunno wad to do. so thats the reason why she's acting like that and all i guess. cos of some problem in her life. yup. k i gtg. see yall tc.


--Aunt Agony at 9:13 PM
Friday, February 06, 2004
hey hey! finally i'm blogging pure one ok maybe this aint the first one but yea.. ive been thinking a lot lately. about how fragile life can be. how it can really hurt. how much people can get hurt by the ones they love. and it hurts a whole lot. i actually wrote a poem to my mother. but i dare not give it to her. confirm will scold till there's no end. like the pop up thingies say. i mean my web pop up thingies. yea. they have a lot of meaning. to me. yess. and i'll be going for charismatic!!! ~+woohoo!+~ ive not gone for charismatic for a long time already. i hope mel wont sleep halfway later lol cos she said that she will. but i think tt she's just wanted to bull me. and its soo cold now. haha. passing showers or something. aah whatever. i dont give. sigh~ so sad. okay the poems i post up on my web is copyright k? lol like anyone wanna take like that but yea they're copyright. so i guess its back to poem writing days again. sigh~ nostalgia.

"To You, My Mother" composed by pang weiru alicia christine (( me ))

i can't live up to your expectations,
i am just pushing aside my emotions.
just so that you cannot see,
there is a different side of me.
i seriously cannot take this anymore,
i am, but an empty core.
living in a world, full of pretence,
barred behind by a barbed wired fence.
what is "love", can you tell me please?
because "love" seems to be giving me some casualties.
the pain that you have inflicted upon me in the past,
you seem to have forgotten your doings, oh so fast.
i want to rest, and not bear this pain,
and never to wake to this reality again.

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yup that was the poem i was supposed to give to my mother.. yea.. but i dunno if i should give.. ((dilemma)) yup.. yes!! tmr gonna watch "gothika" cant wait. muahahahaha. well yup. thats about it. yeah.. a lot of things happened lately. people can really hurt me real bad. with their words. verbal abuse. lol. if u can say that. hahaha. i anyhow say one la. yup. sigh~ cant stop sighing. everytime i think about it feel like.. aah nvm. yup. k then. see y'all arnd if anyone ever reads. yup. k see yall. take care, God bless. peace out.
--Aunt Agony at 4:57 PM
Monday, February 02, 2004
Light In Your Eyes- Blessed Union Of Souls

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me

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i like this song a lot.. it relates a lot to my life actually.. =P.. all the song lyrics i post on this site right.. i think they're quite meaningful though.. dunno if y'all think so.. but then again no one comes here.. so what the hell.. lol okay.. hmmm.. yea hor. hmmm. 12 days to valentine's day! and mtv asia awards. damn. cant go. gotta go to some dumb camp. hike walk and all that. must walk to macritchie reservoir or something. yea!! there's training tmr. haha. ms indran said be prepared for pt tmr. wonder what're we gonna do. hmmmm that sent me thinking. hope tmr wont be such a hectic day. i wanna slack. and history test tmr! didnt study. how. heck la. just read through my notes can alr. settled ok. well to all you people whose hearts are broken.. chill man.. you're not alone.. i'm always here!! =P lol.. not saying my heart is broken but yea.. im here.. dont do foolish things like ending your life.. you're destroying god's wonderful creation. and he will not want to see any of his creation die. he moulded you to the person youve become. dont let the devil take hold of yall. well i gtg. peace out yall.
--Aunt Agony at 7:20 PM